Sunday, 20 December 2015

Our beautiful girl

Yesterday afternoon our hearts broke in two. 
For we had to say goodby to you.
Our love for you is a beautiful haze
Even though you lived for 8 short days 

We kissed you, we cuddled you, we tickled your feet,
And I know again one day we'll meet
Today brought a rainbow, the lightest of hue
And I wondered if it was sent from you?

Our beautiful daughter Ally Louise, 
I whisper your name and it drifts on the breeze,
The pain in my body and heart and my soul 
Feels it will consume me and leave me un-whole 

Your brothers will honour you in all that they do, 
We forever have 3 children, not just two,
I will try to heal for you, and my body unfurl
You'll be always beside me our beautiful girl. 

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  1. My heart breaks for you and your family. She will be your angel watching over you. Sleep tight Ally Louise xxx

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  3. So, so sorry to here this. Beautiful poem for a beautiful baby girl xx

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  4. I'm so sorry for your loss. Love to you and your lovely family at this sad time xxxx

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  5. I cannot even fathom how you all must be feeling, my thoughts and prayers are with you all xxx

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  6. So sorry for ur loss, sleep tight baby girl xxxx

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  7. So sorry for your loss. Words are not enough at this sad time xxx

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  8. Prayers and love for you all and special prayers for Ally Louise as she joins the angels in heaven xx

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  9. Nooooo! We are so sorry to hear this. Big hugs. xxxx

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  10. Oh oh oh Heidi, when I had finished crying for you in your loss, so beautifully and poignantly and heart-breakingly written, the only thought I had was that the best possible tribute to your beautiful daughter would be to beat volder(s)hit, and get yourself better. She will never be forgotten, now she sits on your shoulder and helps you through this. With love. Cathy's dad xxxx

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  11. I am so devastated for you all. Don't give up fighting ur boys need you and we all need you xxxx

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  12. Heidi - I am so sorry to hear this dreadful news . I was thinking of you both this morning. It is truly devastating- it really is the hardest thing to cope with, but your love for beautiful Ally will always shine & u will carry her with you always! Gentle steps lovely lady! ' what we have once loved we can never lose, all that we love deeply becomes a part of us' xxxx

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  13. Oh, Heidi Lowdi. I'm so sorry to read this. I cannot even begin imagine how you all must be feeling. Love and hugs to you all. Xxx

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  14. I'm so sorry to hear this sad news Heidi. Love from Gabrielle x

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  15. My Heart and Prayers go out to you and Ally.

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  16. Please keep fighting to make a full recovery in honour of your daughter Ally/Family my prayers are wth you all x

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  17. I'm so sorry, there is nothing quite like losing a child, we lost our son during delivery in June and I can honestly say it's the hardest thing I've ever been through. I can't imagine how you and your family are dealing with your treatment at the same time as surviving your loss. My thoughts are with you all xxx

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  18. I am going through chemotherapy at the moment. Please keep fighting. Xx

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  19. Wish you all the best ...what a brave , brave woman you are. xxxxxx

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  20. May god give you more patience and power young lady, you have been through a lot, but brighter days wait for you. Your little angel is with god, dont worry.

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  21. I'm sat here in tears for you and I don't even know you. I can't imagine how you feel. I'm so so sorry. May God bless all of you xx

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  22. My condolences to you and your family. May God give u all strength through this difficult times.
    May your Xmas �� only get better best wishes. With a hopeful, happier and more successful new year for u too.

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  23. My condolences to you and your family. May God give u all strength through this difficult times.
    May your Xmas �� only get better best wishes. With a hopeful, happier and more successful new year for u too.

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  24. Hi Heidi, I have been following your story on the news, as I was diagnosed with cancer last year. I'm so sorry. It's fucking shit. Xx

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  25. My thought are with you - you have to get better now for her and the rest of the family - I don't believe in god but you deserve his help if he exists
    love

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  26. My heartfelt sorrow, prayers and support. You did a beautiful and noble thing. May Jesus and Mary fill you with love and consolidation. Prayers for you and you beautiful family.

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  27. My heartfelt sorrow, prayers and support. You did a beautiful and noble thing. May Jesus and Mary fill you with love and consolidation. Prayers for you and you beautiful family.

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  28. I am so so sorry Heidi. My thoughts are with you and your family. Life is so cruel and unfair, unbelievably cruel. Thinking of you all xx

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  29. So truly sorry for your devastating loss. Our thoughts are with you xx

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  30. Sending biggest love and hugs to you and your family. Stay strong -x-

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  31. Sending biggest love and hugs to you and your family. Stay strong -x-

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  32. I am so sorry for your devastating loss. I can't imagine how incredibly hard things are. I'm thinking of you and your beautiful family my heart aches for you. Love always xxxx

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  33. So very sorry for all of your family. My heart is breaking, such a sweet little soul, stay strong all of you for she is watching over you xxxx

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  34. So very sorry for all of your family. My heart is breaking, such a sweet little soul, stay strong all of you for she is watching over you xxxx

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  35. Thinking of you and praying that a peace that passes understanding will comfort you and your family in this time that I can't even imagine to begin what it must be like.

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  36. Dear Heidi, My heart is breaking for you and your lovely family Your little girl is safe with Jesus and you will meet her again one day. Have patience until then. I pray for your recovery.

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  37. A beautiful poem. I'm so so sorry for your loss. You are in our thoughts and prayers. Sending you all love. Stay strong and get well xxx

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  38. I have watched your story through the media and my heart just sank. Much Love at this heart breaking time xx

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  39. Amidst all the bad news in the world it is good to hear of humanity at its highest.

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  40. I'm so sorry for your loss, RIP precious angel 😇
    Wishing you a full recovery and sending my love to you all xx

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  41. We had a rainbow when I left hospital after losing our daughter, Zoe, at 19wks pregnant. I am in recovery from treatment for breast cancer. Please, try with all your might, to stay strong. You're going to win this battle - for BOTH of you. Xxx

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  42. Thoughts and prayers go to you and your family xx

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  43. My wife and I send you our love, thoughts and prayers. As you say in your beautiful poem, you WILL meet your angel daughter again. She is very near. May God bless you and comfort you with His deep love and compassion.

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  44. My wife and I send you our love, thoughts and prayers. As you say in your beautiful poem, you WILL meet your angel daughter again. She is very near. May God bless you and comfort you with His deep love and compassion.

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  46. Cherish those beautiful days together with Ally, she will remain forever in your hearts. Sadly nothing can change her passing, but her memory will be a blossom in all our lives. All my love to your family at this truly sad sad time.

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  47. Please don't blame yourself for this, you did everything you could. I don't know you, by my heart goes out to you, and I'm sorry.

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  48. Our son was diagnosed with severe inoperable heart defects 3 months into the pregnancy. He was not expected to live 3 days. After being born we lost him 3 times at 3 days, 5 weeks and again at 7 weeks but each time he came back to us. We battled every day for 14 months but eventually he lost the battle in February this year. It is heart breaking and you want to scream everyday but don't let it consume you. She is an angel now, looking over you.

    Love

    David and family.

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  49. We are praying for you and send you love x

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  50. I'm so sorry your time with your daughter was so limited. It will make her no less part of your family or your heart
    Take care, my thoughts are with you

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  51. Been following your story and deeply saddened by this news. Your beautiful daughter and what strong words from a loving mummy. Love to you all x

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  52. I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family X Linsey X

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  53. So sad for your loss. Thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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  54. So sorry for your loss. Thoughts are with you.

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  56. Good luck with your chemotherapy. Our thoughts are with you.

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  57. Those who are loved always fly with the angels.
    Good luck, you all deserve it.

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  58. Dearest Heidi...my heart breaks for you at this bleak time. We lost a little boy some years ago & the sorrow is beyond words. I know we will see Adam again & so will you see your darling Ally. I pray you will keep strong. You are an inspiration to us all.God bless you & your lovely family. xx

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  59. So sad to learn of your terrible loss. I lost a son after 4 days and it is the hardest thing to deal with. I wish you the best of chances for beating cancers ass and please know the whole country sends you love xxxx

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  60. Dearest Heidi...my heart breaks for you at this bleak time. We lost a little boy some years ago & the sorrow is beyond words. I know we will see Adam again & so will you see your darling Ally. I pray you will keep strong. You are an inspiration to us all.God bless you & your lovely family. xx

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  61. Sorry to hear your loss, your an amazing role model to everyone, your family must be so proud. Even during this difficult time.

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  62. Sending you and your family so much love at such a difficult time. All of your children are so lucky to have such a brave and strong Mum who moves heaven and Earth to fight such a brutal illness to take care and be there for them. Ally Louise will never be forgotten and will forever be a symbol of strength, love and perseverance. xxxx

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  63. So sorry to hear you have been through so much, be gentle with yourself and concentrate on getting well for your sons and for her. You did your very best for her care and you could not have done more. It's a beautiful poem, written from your heart. Writing can be quite therapeutic and help you through this, I run two poetry forums, one is more social, the other is a workshop with more in depth comment from other poets. If you friend me on face book or Linked in, if you like, I will send you the links. I had a near death experience as a child - so feel certain your daughter is in a place of love light, warmth, peace and tranquillity,it was so beautiful, I wanted to stay there, but was returned to my body and family. I understand words can't ease the pain, hope that reading al; these, gives you a crumb of comfort,your heart will lead you through this path of grief, in your own way, and in your own time, there is no right or wrong way, only your way.

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  64. Heartfelt sympathies Heidi; our thoughts are with you and your family xx

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  65. I'm so so terribly sorry. She will be your guiding light from here. I'm sure she is having a word upstairs as I type.

    I cried for you.

    XXX

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  66. My thoughts are with you. I'm so so sorry. Life can be bloody shite. X

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  67. Words aren't enough but I'm so sorry for you and your family and my heart is hurting for you all x

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  68. Words can never be enough..............
    God bless you all.
    Pierre

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  69. My group has been following your story all the way from America. We are a group of Moms, mostly, that have had miscarriages or lost a child...we were rooting for you and are so sorry. We would really like to send you one of our memorial blankets, when you are ready please contact me, it's completely free, this isn't an ad, we just want to try to help comfort you. *BIG HUGS*

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  70. I send you the biggest hug and my dearest sympathies xxxxx

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  71. I am so sorry to hear this news. Even as a total stranger to you, it is heart-breaking.

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  72. I feel your pain and sadness . Please be strong in your fight ahead. #lovehopestrength
    An angel in heaven
    A star in the sky
    Good night sweetheart
    Never goodbye ���� x

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  73. This is heartbreaking my heart sends love to you <3

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  74. You gave Ally the best chance at life and for that you should always be proud x x x x

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  75. I am so very sorry for your loss. You are so brave and were faced with an impossible decision. You did the only thing you could and I'm praying that you make a full recovery. Thinking of you and your beautiful daughter x

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  76. You gave Ally the best chance at life and for that you should always be proud x x x x

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  77. Right now I want to be able perform miracles. I want your beautiful daughter to still be here with you, and I want the cancer to go away. Why the fuck can't I perform miracles. Sending you strength and love and hope xxx

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  78. I am so sorry for your loss, Heidi. It's the worst thing that can happen. We lost our baby son, our first child, during delivery in Nov. I don't know you but I do share your pain. We both will get our babies back soon. Love to you and your family x

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  79. I am so sorry for you loss so heartbreaking sending you hugs and love your baby girl will always be right by your side and always be shining bright for you my baby boy always does fly high beautiful angel xxxxxx

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  80. You and your family, including little Ally, are in our thoughts tonight. We're so sorry for your loss.

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  81. I am so sorry for you loss so heartbreaking sending you hugs and love your baby girl will always be right by your side and always be shining bright for you my baby boy always does fly high beautiful angel xxxxxx

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  82. I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. You are a very brave lady and I wish you all the best and that you make a full recovery. I can't even imagine the pain that you must be feeling. Love and best wishes xxx

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  83. Have been in tears reading your story. Thinking of you & your baby xxxx

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  84. Our hearts are breaking for you all. You held an angel in your arms and she'll never leave your hearts. God Bless you all. Look for the new brightest star. Sleep well little one.

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  85. I'm so sorry to here this my thoughts are with you and your family xx

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  86. You are so brave. Thinking of you and your family. God bless X

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  87. I'm so sorry hun. Don't give up xxx

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  88. I'm so sorry hun. Don't give up xxx

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  89. I am extremely sorry to hear of your loss, i send you my thoughts and prayers x x

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  90. i have been keeping up with your progress via the news. i am so so so sorry to hear of little Ally's passing. sending you all our love and prayers xxx

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  91. The shittiest news, but the very best of luck to you all. X

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  92. Heidi and Keith I'm absolutely devastated for you and your family, this just isn't fair and I know nothing I say will make this any easier but you are in my thoughts!!! Stay strong and kick voldertits ass!!!!! Alex Norman xx

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  93. Very sad to hear this, it is so unfair, my thoughts are with you and your family at this time x

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  94. I woke up today thinking about you.... Just so sorry words will never be enough bbb x

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  95. I woke up today thinking about you.... Just so sorry words will never be enough bbb x

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  96. What beautiful words, I am so so sorry to hear of this. I wish u all the strength and love to keep fighting, u r all in my thoughts xx

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  97. We too have been following your story via the news. This is utterly devasting news - I wish there was something we could do :( I lost my younger brother when I was very little at Christmas and I know how devasting it can be. I hope you win your fight against cancer and one day you will see little Ally again. I wish you nothing but good fortune and best wishes. xxx

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  98. So so sorry to hear this news. Life can be so unfair. Thinking of you all and sending love x x x

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  99. Such a terrible thing to happen, I'm so sorry. It's when the chips are down like this that you need to say 'Sod this', and be strong for your daughter, your family, and yourself. Please don't despair. You made an impossible choice as best you could. She would be proud of her mum for giving her the best chance in the situation. Fight this evil and beat it for her! Believe you can, and you will.

    These are not empty words from me; I've lost a few family members to cancer including my mother to breast cancer; my dad has battled colon cancer and beaten it, and I'm fighting melanoma. The whole thing sucks! But I'm not going to let it win; I will be strong for my family, just as I know you will be strong for yours.

    All the best

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  100. I'm a mother of two and I'm in tears for your little angel. Find strength in your children and in the love of all the people who are around you, far and away. God bless you all.

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  101. We surely belong to God and to Him we shall return.
    She shall be in heaven and she might be your passage to heaven to be there with her forever.
    My God give you strength and patience to overcome this but fear not she is truly a lucky one to have been yours and to God she retured. Forever you will be her loving mother.
    As a man my heart bleeds from your ordeal.

    Muslim

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  102. Heartbreaking news, our thoughts are with you and your family and with your beautiful angel, Ally xx

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  103. So very sorry to hear your sad news. Life can be so cruel and unfair. Thoughts are with you and your family. May you have the strength to carry on fighting this dreadful disease. XXX

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  104. So very sorry to hear your sad news. Life can be so cruel and unfair. Thoughts are with you and your family. May you have the strength to carry on fighting this dreadful disease. XXX

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  105. Totally devastated to have read this news today. I wish you peace safe in the knowledge that you did everything you could for your daughter. I wish you courage to face the battle ahead. I wish you comfort in the arms of your loved ones and the support of so many more besides. And I wish you joy in every moment with your two precious sons. xxx

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  106. I can only say I'm sending love at an impossibly difficult time.x

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  107. So, so sorry. My daughter "chose" to terminate her 3rd pregnancy when she found out she needed chemo for breast cancer aged 27. That was when she found out she was pregnant too, when they took her bloods for her cancer diagnosis. Suddenly she had cancer, and was pregnant to boot. She's never got over the baby that never was, she wasn't in a position to take any of it in at that period of her life, let alone take any rational decisions.

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  108. Heidi, i'm so sorry. Sitting here crying for you, your family and your precious little girl. She had 8 days with all the love in the world surrounding her and she knew she was cherished. Rest easy, Ally xxxxx Take care Heidi.

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  109. Love never dies. My heart goes out to you and your family.

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  110. Condolences-Heidi, Keith and Boys.
    Heidi-you did not do the 'wrong thing'that you mentioned worrying about in your blog.You gave your precious daughter, Ally,a real chance at life-well done you.It was not your fault that Ally died-she was a good fighting weight for a premature baby-you gave her every chance.Please get well for your family Heidi.

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  111. Condolences-Heidi, Keith and Boys.
    Heidi-you did not do the 'wrong thing'that you mentioned worrying about in your blog.You gave your precious daughter, Ally,a real chance at life-well done you.It was not your fault that Ally died-she was a good fighting weight for a premature baby-you gave her every chance.Please get well for your family Heidi.

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  112. So sorry to read of your loss. My heart and prayers go out to you. She was with you for only eight days but will be in your heart forever. You gave the little one the best chance. May you heal and grow strong again and may your family stand together proud.

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  113. You are in my thoughts, even though I don't even know you, keep strong xxx

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  114. Sat here in shock with tears for you and your family. I cannot think of anything to say. You did everything you possibly could for your beautiful daughter and now, as hard as it seems, you have to do what you can for your beautiful boys. Get well as soon as possible. All our love Sally. Bear and Cardigan

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  115. You are a rare and selfless woman and one that Ally would be so proud to have as her mother! She will be looking over you willing you to fight for yourself and your family. Rest in peace sweet angel xx

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  116. You did the right thing. Never question it. You are so brave and you can get through this. xxxxxx

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  117. Words fail me...your strength is admirable.

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  119. I'm so very sorry for your loss, almost a no-win situation. You definitely did the right thing. My thoughts are with you, we wish you the best of luck in the new year.

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  120. God bless you and your family. So sad to read about Ally Louise - may she rest peacefully. Hoping you make a full recovery from your cancer.

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  121. I am so sorry to hear the news :( you gave her the best chance. Thoughts are with you and your family and wish you the best for your treatment x

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  122. i am so so so sorry for your loss I have been following you and your precious daughter via the news and your blog theres no words that I can say to comfort you keith or your 2 small boys but you gave her the best chance my thoughts are with you and your family tonight and everything may ally louise rest in peace all the best for your treatment you are one brave lady xxx

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  123. You are a brave woman. I'm sorry you had to make such a difficult and heartbreaking decision. Thinking of you and your family.

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  124. You are a brave woman. I'm sorry you had to make such a difficult and heartbreaking decision. Thinking of you and your family.

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  125. You did the right thing for your family. With love xx

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  126. I'm so very sorry to hear of your loss. I'm sure that everybody who has seen this story in the news will be wanting to send their love and support in your direction and will also be wanting you to stay strong and make a full recovery. Take care.

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  127. So so sorry to hear the saddest news about Ally Louise.
    Your poem is beautiful like your baby girl.
    All our love and strength to you, Keith and the boys x
    Dean and family

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  128. Rest in peace Ally Louise. God will give strength to all those who loved you!

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  129. I am so very sorry that you will not be able to hold this lovely daughter in your arms any more, only in your heart. I wish you the very best outcome, and a time for all your pain to heal.

    A mother

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  130. Oh I am so very very sorry. Your pain is unimaginable. She will forever be in your hearts and you are all very much in my thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry

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  131. Heidi,

    I read about your experience in the paper today. It touched me, because our first son was born, in an emergency situation, 14 weeks early. He lived, thanks to excellent medical care, but is quite severely handicapped--an event which changed our lives. Of course, we agonized for years over every decision we made during the pregnancy... what if we had done X differently, what if we had done Y differently? Eventually I realized the futility of such self-torture, and became at peace with it.

    I'm sure you're asking yourself too: "what if I had waited one more week?" So I just want to say one thing to you: it's not your fault. We make the best decisions we can; but sometimes, it's not enough.

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  132. So so sorry to hear the saddest news about Ally Louise.
    Your poem is beautiful like your baby girl.
    All our love and strength to you, Keith and the boys x
    Dean and family

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  133. I am wishing for you infinite wells of strength,courage and peace. May you draw comfort from the love and support of your family, friends and the many, many strangers like me who are deeply moved by your story. We're all holding you close and supporting you with our thoughts and energy. I hope you can feel it in the moments you need it.

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  134. My heart breaks for you. I read of your sad situation on bbc news and feel compelled to tell you how truly sorry i am for your loss. There are no words, please know others are thinking and praying for you x

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  135. I don't have words that will make things better for you right now, I can't tell you things are going to be just fine and dandy, But, from my experience ( I'm 7 years in remission with 2 girls ( 7 and 4) and an angel baby boy who would have been 9 next year. You know, When you have an angel child, everything else seems so easy to beat! I know from the little I have read on your blog and in the news that the strength that you have from your experiences will take you far, and though I'm devastated to hear your news today I wish you all hope and positivity for the future, Ally will be with you all forever, came along for a reason. Much much more than you will see for a while x keep strong, Allow each other patience to deal with so so much at different times and in different ways xx

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  136. Sorry to hear of your loss. It took great strength to make such a huge decision. My heart goes out to you and your family. I lost my daughter 6yrs ago now after being born 15weeks early. I look back and am so grateful for just that short time with had with. Your family will give you strength and focus. There is light at the end of the tunnel. Keep fighting my mother has terminal breast cancer. I feel your pain. Best wishes x

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  137. My thoughts and prayers are with you. May you find comfort and peace, and complete healing.

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  138. thinking of the whole family at this sad time.

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  139. So sorry to hear this there should be more people like you in this world .
    Best wishes

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  140. So sorry to hear your sad news. Thinking of you all. xx

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  141. Heidi
    I am in tears reading your words of love for your beautiful daughter Ally Louise. My heart truly goes out to you for the heart breaking loss of your child and your crappy deal with the big C. Ten years ago we lost our first born son Patrick after 5 days are we know the heartbreak and sorrow that follows. I always remember reading a poem at the time that gave me great strength. It talked about "the child that you will never have, but yet, the child that you will always have". A child never forgotten, always remembered. We went on to have two more wonderful children, but just like you and Kieth, we will always have three.

    Last year my wife was also diagnosed with the dreaded Breast C. A Mastectomy, the Chemo, the radiotherapy and the Herceptin wonder drug. We are coming out the other side of all that and I know what a rotten deal that is for you too. You are so unbelievably brave holding out as long as you could for the sake of your wonderful daughter Ally Louise and my thoughts are with you at this terrible time.
    Nick and Catherine, The Lake Grounds, Portishead.

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  142. I hope that somehow you can gain some small strength from the many people who have read your story this week and who are sending you and your family love, prayers and everything that cannot be measured to help you in the days, weeks and months ahead. You are an inspiration.

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  143. I'm very sad to hear this. Your poem is beautiful. I am sure many people are thinking of you and sending love. I hope in some small way this can help give you some strength to get through this.

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  144. All my love to you and your family xx

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  145. All my love to you and your family xx

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  146. I'm so very sorry for your loss. There are no words. I hope that you and your family will find peace and happiness in time, Claire x

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  147. Thinking of you and all your family. X

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  148. I'm so very sorry for your loss. There are no words. I hope that you and your family will find peace and happiness in time, Claire x

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  149. There are no words - Such a tragic loss - My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, and your beautiful girl xxxxx

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  150. My heart breaks for you and your family at this sad and awful period. You will remember those few precious days you all had with Ally and one day your tears will turn to smiles. Stay strong for yourself and the rest of your family. I am truely so, so sorry for your loss and wish you the best of luck in your fight xx

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  151. So so sorry for your loss..May she rest in peace..

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  152. So so sorry for your loss..May she rest in peace..

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  153. So sorry. Resquiescat in pace. You'll always have your memories. Much love x

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  154. I have followed your story and just discovered the outcome. I can't tell you how truly sorry I am for you and your family. I heard you on the radio and I was awe struck by your bravery and courage. You were so positive and a shining example to anyone going through cancer at such a young age. I just wish life was fair, it is random and you do not deserve to go through this pain and suffering. I am sure we all meet in heaven but may your beautiful baby daughter be still within you today and always. Jan Artingstall

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  155. So so sorry to hear this. May the angels watch over her.

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  156. I have followed your story and just discovered the outcome. I can't tell you how truly sorry I am for you and your family. I heard you on the radio and I was awe struck by your bravery and courage. You were so positive and a shining example to anyone going through cancer at such a young age. I just wish life was fair, it is random and you do not deserve to go through this pain and suffering. I am sure we all meet in heaven but may your beautiful baby daughter be still within you today and always. Jan Artingstall

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  158. We share your pain, we been there :-( may you recover from cancer for your two lovely boys.Praying for you and your family.

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  159. My heart breaks for you and your family, may your precious little Angel, watch over you....sending loving healing thoughts to you all.

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  160. We share your pain, we been there :-( may you recover from cancer for your two lovely boys.Praying for you and your family.

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  161. I collected my two beautiful Grandchildren today, to have them till the 27th as their parents are working. Kaiden,2 has congenital heart defects, his sister Gabrielle 7 adores him. I tucked them up in bed and my tears flowed, thinking of the pain you are all going through. May it help to know that others are thinking of you and sending loving healing thoughts. May your strength and positivity heal your cancer. Love to you, hubby n boys.

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  162. I'm so very sorry for you, lovely lady. I saw you on the news and said a prayer for you all. You are amazing and did your very best for your beautiful daughter. Sending love at this terribly sad time. xxx

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  163. Life is incredibly cruel sometimes, I cannot fathom how you must be feeling. Please continue to be strong for the people that love you even though your heart is broken.Thinking of you and your darling child. Much love xxx

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  164. Life is incredibly cruel sometimes, I cannot fathom how you must be feeling. Please continue to be strong for the people that love you even though your heart is broken.Thinking of you and your darling child. Much love xxx

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  165. I am so truly deeply sorry for your loss, more sorry than words can express, my beautiful girl grew her wings 7 years ago after being born at 22 weeks, the pain of that is deep enough, but how on earth are you still here and writing this, with all you are going through, you serious!y are the most amazing lady! I mean it with all my heart, the pain will never leave but i promise it eases slightly as time goes by, she is always with you and i am sure she is immensely proud of you. She will be your strength while you get through your illness, i hope with every bit of me that you get better, god bless you all and rip beautiful baby girl ally, another tiny angel gone too soon xxx

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  166. I am so truly deeply sorry for your loss, more sorry than words can express, my beautiful girl grew her wings 7 years ago after being born at 22 weeks, the pain of that is deep enough, but how on earth are you still here and writing this, with all you are going through, you serious!y are the most amazing lady! I mean it with all my heart, the pain will never leave but i promise it eases slightly as time goes by, she is always with you and i am sure she is immensely proud of you. She will be your strength while you get through your illness, i hope with every bit of me that you get better, god bless you all and rip beautiful baby girl ally, another tiny angel gone too soon xxx

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  167. We haven't met but I know you through my sister, an old uni friend of yours. Hearing your news and reading your poem brought me to tears. Such terrible news after all you have been through. I am so sorry.
    The oncology team at Bristol are great! They cured me of testicular cancer and they'll cure you. Be as strong as you have shown you are and let time heal your heart as the chemo cures you. Never forget her, she'll always be with you and your family.

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  168. Heidi, like many others I saw your story on the news and was so happy to see the arrival of your precious baby Ally. I am so sorry to hear this heart breaking news. I am devastated for you. No words can erase the pain, you will always keep her with you. Your courage and determination has touched my heart, you must go on to win this fight lady! In this darkest time she will be a light that keeps you going.

    Stay strong xxxxx �� S
    Sending so much love to you and your family x

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  169. Hi, dear! I'm brazilian and i don't speak english very well, but i will try.

    Then... i know about your history and your lost and i want to say: "Stay strong". But i know but I know it's not easy...
    My heart pities your pain , and even not being able to feel a small piece of what you feel right now , I can tell you that God will take care of making the paths Him. We , Brazilians conhemos its history, love you! Thanks for being a mother sample , thank you for being a warrior example of this fight against cancer. We love u!

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  170. Even though I do not know you.Every time I see your news reports I cry.I am so so sorry for you and your husband.Your baby is with the angels now!Bless you both.
    I hope your cancer fight is successful and you go into remission.
    Again words do not express the pain you must be feeling.
    I am in tears just typing this.

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  171. stay strong, you're such a hero brave heart

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  172. So sorry for your loss; so very sorry.
    When you feel a heart break
    That you know doesn't compare
    To the one that is particularly felt

    So very sorry for your loss
    When you feel a sadness
    That is you know can be as sad
    As the sad that you lovely woman feel

    So very sorry for your loss
    When words can't convey
    The droop in your face
    As you read such a tearful story

    So very sorry for your loss. Praying that you feel better, praying for your comfort, praying for all to be well.

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  173. Your likely to write another song about people like me, people who write cliche shit at a time when nothing anyone in the world could say would make you feel any better. You are the most inspirational person I have ever came across. Your baby girl was and always will be beautiful, and frankly your the bravest fuckin woman on the earth. I am thinking of you and your family at this time, I send every bit of love and luck I can to you all. Next time I act like the stupid 19 year old I am and winge cause I haven't got any money or because work makes me late home an I miss hollyoaks or whatever other shit I wanted to watch on tele, I remember there are people like you out there that go through this shit and do it with a smile for ur family. You have truly opened my eyes. God bless u and ur family xxxxxx

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  174. Dear Heidi. So sorry to hear this terrible news. I lost my son 7 years ago and have found huge support and comfort through a charity called The Compassionate Friends. Everyone has lost a child but help each other through. It was my lifeline. Please look them up when you feel able to. You and your family are in my thoughts. Xx

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  175. From a retired cop in France, deepest, deepest sympathy brave girl at this saddest of times. We hope you will take comfort and find strength from the comments and messages you receive, be aware you have much love and support around the world.

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  176. Biggest love to you and to your family. Stay strong.

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  177. Condolences. Courage. You gave her a chance. Now get well for the sake of your sons. You will never forget her 'for you have held her in the palm of your hand'

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  178. I'm so so sorry for you and your families loss Heidi. Your special girl Ally will be with you in spirit everyday of your lives. Please get yourself better quickly for your sons and your partner. Wishing you peace x

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  179. Healing prayers for you and your family at this sad time. We lost our beautiful Granddaughter at 21wks victim of SIDS. I pray you will find strength in the days ahead. Soar high with the angels baby girl. Ally Louise is only a loving thought away she'll walk beside you every day. God Bless x

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  180. So so sad to hear the news of Ally. Was only wondering how you both were getting on last night. It may have been brief but Ally's story has touched many. All love to you xx

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  181. Healing prayers for you and your family at this sad time. We lost our beautiful Granddaughter at 21wks victim of SIDS. I pray you will find strength in the days ahead. Soar high with the angels baby girl. Ally Louise is only a loving thought away she'll walk beside you every day. God Bless x

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  183. My deepest condolences to you and your family. I was reduced to tears when I read your poem. God must have needed a baby angel to keep all the others in check. One day in the very far future you'll see her again. God bless.

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  184. I am so desperately sorry for your loss. Words seem so empty besides the grief and worry you must be feeling. Stay strong. I lost my mum a couple of weeks ago and she has been by my side with my 3 breast cancers over the last 6 years - her message to me was "Life Goes On" and thats the mantra that keeps me going. Bless your heart sweetheart xxxxx

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  185. I Pray that you will find the inner strength to carry on. It can't be easy, knowing your have lost your beautiful baby. Hold fast, one day soon, you shall meet again. Know ing that their is hope of a better place, Please find solace in that fact that all is not loss, you will definitely see her again. My thoughts and prayers are with you and as we say in ' Jamaica' one love and Jah guidance,time.

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  186. Heidi my darling. You are walking through hell. Keep walking. The pain will never go. But you will find a way to live with it. Stay within the bosom of your family. Count your blessings. BTW I make the most delicious tablet. If you send me your address I will post you some xx traceyguy69@hotmail.com x

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  187. I Pray that you will find the inner strength to carry on. It can't be easy, knowing your have lost your beautiful baby. Hold fast, one day soon, you shall meet again. Know ing that their is hope of a better place, Please find solace in that fact that all is not loss, you will definitely see her again. My thoughts and prayers are with you and as we say in ' Jamaica' one love and Jah guidance,time.

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