So I'm struggling to find how to write at the moment. There is a huge gap in our lives. The way I saw January panning out was trips between hospitals. I would have chemo and I would have Ally. Hospital 1, drugs in my arm. Hospital 2, drugs in my heart. You see Ally was a drug to me. She was motivation, positivity, love and so much more. Now she is gone I'm on a huge come down. I would say withdrawal but that would suggest that I'll be ok at the end.
What I can say with regards to hope is that there is some. I have two beautiful little boys and one large one to look after. I think if I lean right down, tilt my head and squint I can see the light at the end of the tunnel but wow it's hard to see.
My friend Lizzie can tell you a lot more. I've mentioned her before and she is the first person I thought of when it all started to get dark. She is the reason I started this blog and also the reason why I won't stop.
Please read.
Lizzie. Thank you xxxx
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8 comments:
My prayers are continuing to surround you Heidi and your family and especially with Ally as she watches over you all from heaven. I know words are never enough but there all we have xx
My prayers are continuing to surround you Heidi and your family and especially with Ally as she watches over you all from heaven. I know words are never enough but there all we have xx
So sorry for your loss and all you have had to go through. Sending all the positive thoughts and prayers to you and yours.
I've been reading your blogs and my heart is heavy for your loss but its also praying and giving hope to you and your family. I wish you all the best. Your a strong and courageous lady. Xx
Heidi, you and your family are in my thoughts every day. Love Hils xxx
One step at a time girl, one step at a time! When you are finding it hard just remember your stalkers are right behind you, pushing your back with full force to make sure you take that step forward and the next and the next. We are pushing you up that hill and will continue to push until you reach the top, until you are ok with life and feel you can walk on your own again. Ok all together now, pushhhhhh!!!!
You are in my thoughts! Be strong and win!
Hugs and a lot of love!
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